Making Memories

  One of my favorite sayings is "It is not about the milestones but the moments"  this phrase has gotten me through many a day and helped to put things into perspective I have it on the wall in my bedroom so that at the end of a bad day i can look at it and remember that it truly is the moments that matter.  Today is all about the moments from the happiness that was contagious as my babe's bounced onto our bed this morning, to seeing the kids excited faces as they came down the stairs to see that the Easter Bunny had left them each a present to watching as my two oldest lovingly raced around the house hunting those brightly coloured eggs and excitedly sharing each and every find with each other with not even a breath of competition to cloud the event.  Watching as my three year old realized that those brightly coloured packages were filled with a delicious chocolate that he was actually allowed to eat for breakfast followed by yummy and beautifully decorated sugar cookies and chocolate banana milkshakes.   Who doesn't love eating dessert first. 

  Our day has been spent relaxing and has exuded love at every turn from my husband quietly telling me that I am a ten and the best mom ever, to my daughter hugging and kissing her baby brother every opportunity that she gets.  My oldest has shared in the joys of the day by incorporating games in which all of the kids can play and little Mr. mayhem has been happily running, bouncing and cuddling the day away.  Miracle of all miracles I have even managed to finish my tea while it was still warm albeit it was lukewarm but it didn't have to be heated 3 times.   I look forward to days like today when we have nothing on the go, no place to be and nothing to do, there is no schedule to follow or therapy to attend we are not rushed to get out the door and are simply allowed to relax, to breathe in the peace and quiet and ignore all of the other things looming on the to do list. 

  Normally on days like today I feel a sense of guilt over wasting away the day, after all there is always something that needs to be done, from the mountain of laundry to the never ending housework but the other night it was brought to my attention from my baby girl that maybe just maybe mommy needs to tune out the outside world and forget about the "should be's" should be cleaning, should do that laundry, should, should, should.  I need to focus on what really matters, spending quality time with my family, really listening when my kids talk to me and getting down to their level not multi tasking my "shoulds" list in the back of my brain while half listening to my kids.

  I feel at peace today, my heart feels happy and for the first time in a very long time i am remembering what it is like to be care free, and to just cherish the moments without worrying about all of the other things that should be done.  I am happy with me and with doing nothing i am pushing out the guilt to truly relax and enjoy.     Tomorrow will be soon enough to get back to the grind and the crazy chaos that follows having 1little drama queen, 2 autistic boys, 1 now mobile baby and a husband in the military.  For today I am cherishing the moments that allow my heart peace, cuddling my babes and loving my husband. 

That's me for today living life one puzzle piece at a time. 

J